Growing Up

Back then when i was in elementary school, i couldn't wait to grow up and go to junior high because it seemed cool and everything. But when i was in 9th grade, i feel like the world after junior high is gonna be serious because you've got to focus on your study and prepare yourself for college. I wished junior high could've lasted longer because it's all fun and games. Yeah it's only a wish. So time flew and now i am in college, everything feels even more serious. How can i live this kind of life with a brain of a 15 year old kid who doesn't want to grow up at all? i wonder, when will i actually grow up? when can i stop fooling around? when can i start thinking about the consequences of my decisions?

Each day we get older. Yes, not getting any younger. I feel like i'm wasting my time. But i don't want to waste my time. I want to get better each day. No more unproductive days. Yeah well maybe i can have some of it when i'm tired but i want to have it just when i realllyyyy need it. I hope this will transform into real actions immediately. Yosshh wish me luck!